Thanksgiving...What am I thankful for? As a whole, I believe this country and others take being thankful for granted. Sometimes we think of others and how thankful we are for them and we think of how thankful we are for being alive. However, most of the time we think like this is around the holidays, at the birth of a child, or the death of a loved one. We don't react until something happens. Every day should be Thanksgiving, not because of the food of coarse, but for giving thanks. I am thankful to be alive and for having a wonderful family that includes my boyfriend, his children, and our extended families. I am also thankful for our wonderful friends who make us feel like family. I am thankful for being an American and to have the freedom to vote. I am thankful for being a woman, a girlfriend, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I am thankful for being me and being who I am.
I am thankful to have the freedom to stand up and use my voice. To say, "Hey, I am not being treated fairly". I have used my voice and have used it proudly. And I am thankful every day to be able to do so. I am thankful every day that I don't have to hide who I am or hide my face because I am not a man. I am thankful that the men in my life have respect for women and the woman I am.
Be thankful for who you are, who you have in your life, and what you have in your life. Be thankful every day. Don't wait because life doesn't wait for you.
Thankful For Who I Am
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
All a girl really wants is love. As I sit here listening to the new Alicia Keys CD, "As I Am", that my boyfriend bought me today... love is the only thing on my mind. Love makes me feel on top of the world. Just hearing Alicia Keys' words about love gives me this warm sensation all over my bones. Music about love keeps you wanting love all night long. You hear her words and you appreciate what you have; love should never be taken for granted. Whoever you are, wherever you are, deep down inside you know all you need is love. Money, expensive cars, elaborate clothing, gossip about your coworkers...it doesn't matter. At the end of the day if you don't have love, than you have nothing. Love keeps you sane, it keeps you going. The love from a boyfriend, a husband, a girlfriend, a wife, from your family, from your children, it is unconditional, it is pure, it is always there. When you have had a bad day at work, a bad day at school, or just a bad day, love will always bring you back to realization. Love will help you realize all that stress from work doesn't matter. When the loved one in your life gives you a hug, a shoulder to lean on, a listening ear, or a t-shirt to cry on, they are giving you love and they are making your bad day disappear. When I get in the door after a horrible day at work all I want from my boyfriend is a hug. That hug, his arms wrapped around me, embracing my woes, gives me strength to forget about everything.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
I love that from day one he has taken me as I am. No masks, no secrets, no need to hide my true self. I have always had a problem with my image, especially my weight. Not that I'm obese, but put it this way...I hate shopping for new clothes! I never thought a man could love all of me for me. I always thought I would have to lose weight and try to look like a supermodel before I found someone. Sometimes when I went out with my friends I would get jealous, they were so beautiful and always knew how to pick up a guy, or a guy knew how to pick them up. One person I envied the most was my older sister. I thought she had it all, the smarts and the looks. She was the popular girl in the popular crowd. Everyone knew me because they knew her. "Oh yeah that's right, you're her sister." I felt that I would only be known as the "sister" and not as me. Even some teachers would call me by her name and she hadn't been in their class for two years! As we got older there were times when she finally let me hang out with her and her friends, but I still felt unwanted. I was tired of being compared to her and to everyone else, I just wanted to be loved for being me...I just wanted to be me. I'm a t-shirt and jeans girl, a football loving, loud talking, city girl. I don't want to try to impress a guy because of the things I can do or the pretty clothes I can put on for a night out. He is going to know me in my comfort zone and love me in my comfort zone.
And this he does. I can be my t-shirt and jeans wearing, football loving, loud talking, city girl self . I can spit my gum out the car window and not have to worry whether I'm being "lady like". There are times when I like to be a lady and be more proper, but I don't have to think twice if I'm just relaxing and lounging around the house. I didn't have to win over my boyfriend by pretending to be someone else. I didn't have to dress up and put make-up on like when I went out with my sister. I can let my guard down and open up to him about anything and everything. Although I'm not sloppy, there is no need to be obsessive about my image. There is no need to ask him, "Do I look fat in this?", because there is no need to care. With him I feel confident as I always should have.
And this he does. I can be my t-shirt and jeans wearing, football loving, loud talking, city girl self . I can spit my gum out the car window and not have to worry whether I'm being "lady like". There are times when I like to be a lady and be more proper, but I don't have to think twice if I'm just relaxing and lounging around the house. I didn't have to win over my boyfriend by pretending to be someone else. I didn't have to dress up and put make-up on like when I went out with my sister. I can let my guard down and open up to him about anything and everything. Although I'm not sloppy, there is no need to be obsessive about my image. There is no need to ask him, "Do I look fat in this?", because there is no need to care. With him I feel confident as I always should have.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Every little girl dreams about what her husband will be like one day. Movies have taught us to dream big. They have taught us to dream for Prince Charming sweeping us off our tired feet; sweeping us away from whatever hell we live in. Television has taught us to dream for a white picket fence and a husband who will take care of us and pay for anything and everthing we want.
In today's world you are either at the top or the bottom. I don't need to be at the top, but I certainly don't want to be at the bottom. I dont need to dream, I need to do. You can't dream for something if you don't take a chance to make it happen. Life doesn't find you, you have to find it. You can't wait for a man to sweep you off your feet if you are sitting on your couch watching soap operas saying, "Why can't I have that life?". Over two years ago I was definitely that girl. I would sit at home watching Friends wishing to be Rachael (Jennifer Aniston), she had the perfect life and the perfect relationship with Ross (David Schwimmer). She also had the perfect hair! But I realized that I didn't need to be Rachael, I just need to be me and love being me.
In the movies Prince Charming shouldn't get all the credit for saving the Princess' life. She has to find herself and love herself first before she can love him and love at
all. I had my downs with dating until I loved myself and realized that I am good enough and that he should be too. My boyfriend is more than enough. He has shown me with the love he has for me and the love he has for his children that life is more than dreaming.
You were in my dreams and now have become my reality.
I didn't need a fairy tale, I didn't need a castle.
I needed someone to hold, someone to love.
I didn't need a million dollars or a house on the beach.
I needed someone true to themselves, and true to me.
I wanted a reality come true, I wanted someone like you.
Dreams are made of cotton candy, lollipops, and candy canes.
Life is made of ups and downs, the good and bad, right and wrong.
A relationship isn't what you dream, it's what you make.
You can dream for happiness, but only we can make it happen.
My reality has come true, because I am in love with you.
In today's world you are either at the top or the bottom. I don't need to be at the top, but I certainly don't want to be at the bottom. I dont need to dream, I need to do. You can't dream for something if you don't take a chance to make it happen. Life doesn't find you, you have to find it. You can't wait for a man to sweep you off your feet if you are sitting on your couch watching soap operas saying, "Why can't I have that life?". Over two years ago I was definitely that girl. I would sit at home watching Friends wishing to be Rachael (Jennifer Aniston), she had the perfect life and the perfect relationship with Ross (David Schwimmer). She also had the perfect hair! But I realized that I didn't need to be Rachael, I just need to be me and love being me.
In the movies Prince Charming shouldn't get all the credit for saving the Princess' life. She has to find herself and love herself first before she can love him and love at
all. I had my downs with dating until I loved myself and realized that I am good enough and that he should be too. My boyfriend is more than enough. He has shown me with the love he has for me and the love he has for his children that life is more than dreaming.
You were in my dreams and now have become my reality.
I didn't need a fairy tale, I didn't need a castle.
I needed someone to hold, someone to love.
I didn't need a million dollars or a house on the beach.
I needed someone true to themselves, and true to me.
I wanted a reality come true, I wanted someone like you.
Dreams are made of cotton candy, lollipops, and candy canes.
Life is made of ups and downs, the good and bad, right and wrong.
A relationship isn't what you dream, it's what you make.
You can dream for happiness, but only we can make it happen.
My reality has come true, because I am in love with you.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Breast Cancer. A word no woman wants to hear and recently no man either. Scary, dark, depressing, emotional, life changing. Those are just some of the words that come to mind when I think about breast cancer and I haven't even been effected by it. Though, that is not completey true. I am a woman. October, as many of you probably know, is national breast cancer awareness month. A few years ago I bought 5 yellow LiveStrong wristbands when my friend Danielle died of cancer at the age of 23. I told myself I would always think of her and always support the LiveStrong Foundation. A few months after I bought the yellow wristbands I bought 5 pink ones with the quote, "Share Beauty, Spread Hope", on them. I gave both the yellow and pink bands out to friends and family members in hopes that they too would support both Cancer and Breast Cancer foundations. I know many people wore the wristbands as part of a trend, but I wanted to show that I cared. I can't remember how the wristbands came off my arm and why I stopped wearing them for a while. It could have been in part because of the trend it was becoming and I didn't want to be associated with that... in part because I hate trends...everyone looks the same... I dare to be myself. Although I shouldn't have been bothered about the trend, I should have just been thinking of the friend that I lost and the women it effects.
Not even thinking about the national breast cancer awareness month coming up, about a month ago I was doing some cleaning and located my pink wristband. And yes... I put it on. Last week I was watching some footage on T.V. about the 3-day walk and I just lost it. The love, support, courage, heart, and soul that each team has, brought me to tears. Woman, men, children, young, old, black, white... everyone is touched. Even if you have no family history, you know someone who does, or you know a friend of a friend. I wear my wristband and I wear it for them. I wear it for myself, I wear it for my mother, my sisters, my friends, my grandmothers who aren't here, my boyfriends mother and sisters, and for my boyfriends daughters. I wear it proud.
Not even thinking about the national breast cancer awareness month coming up, about a month ago I was doing some cleaning and located my pink wristband. And yes... I put it on. Last week I was watching some footage on T.V. about the 3-day walk and I just lost it. The love, support, courage, heart, and soul that each team has, brought me to tears. Woman, men, children, young, old, black, white... everyone is touched. Even if you have no family history, you know someone who does, or you know a friend of a friend. I wear my wristband and I wear it for them. I wear it for myself, I wear it for my mother, my sisters, my friends, my grandmothers who aren't here, my boyfriends mother and sisters, and for my boyfriends daughters. I wear it proud.
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